The last voice note you sent me I couldn't hear it, I only felt my phone vibrate but I was so high, without the strength to open my eyes and move my body that I couldn't do anything.
The pills for my insomnia took effect very quickly, I guess it was a hunch, when I woke up the sun was coming through my window.
When I decided to listen to your voice notes, they were full of sadness, you told me you would cry and sleep for a while, I managed to distinguish the brokenness in your voice, the depth of your feeling, I even heard your tears falling and my skin bristled, but I could not react because in search of the cure for my insomnia, I could not notice that you were going to commit suicide and now took pills to forget that I did not listen to your last voice note in time.
I am so afraid of repeating the mistakes of the past without you, of looking for that way out to reach you, I feel lost.
Without you I don't know how to deal with my demons (with me).
Photography by Jocelyn Catterson
I dedicate myself to find my inner peace, my tranquility and to try to get out of the problems I have caused myself.