Sparkles

How many times did I say “yes”?

Like sparkles climbing up my legs
that you don’t know where they came from.
Suddenly they were all over my body:
in my hair, entering through my eyes,
settling in my brain,
sailing through my veins.
Without meaning to, I swallowed them.

They stuck to me,
entered my digestive system,
but they didn’t dissolve.
I thought there would be no adverse effect:
a sparkle can’t hurt…

A flash blinded me.
My eyes had turned to glass.
I looked at the ground, and there it was:
the darkness I feared so much
seemed like the only option.

Fear of the unknown blinded me to the path,
the emptiness of a “no” froze me.

Forgive me, love.
But not anymore.

Photography by Cristóbal Coello Robles // Dev/Scan at Fotograma Film Lab