11/06/1990. Chapter 1. The threat of my birth.

I'm rotten, don't touch me.

I cannot feel life, that which produces pain. I doubt that man is good, for he kills and dies for killing. I question gods, idols and the creator of galaxies.

I am rotting, insults come out of my mouth.

But I can still love you.

In my mind, demons live.

They come for tea at three o'clock.

 

In my eyes, the lie is reflected, they are jet-colored.

My arms are ropes, slide your neck and jump.

I become rotten every time I love, lie, destroy and steal.

Do not kiss my mouth. It is a source of bodily fluids.

I am in a state of decomposition,

I do not feel the experience of living.

I go suspended, strolling along the sidewalks, harvesting lives.

Owner of everything.

Walking dogs and men.

 

I am perishing, I feel anguish.

Fear sings lullabies to me.

Rats surround me, I feel the grass in my translucent arms.

I am rotting, I am biodegradable. Let me be absorbed by the earth.

I will no longer be sterile.

It rains, it blows, I die.

The experience is over.

I open my eyes, the receipt.

Flowers grow on me.

I stopped rotting

Now I am life.

Photography by Martin Canova