And the answer is yes. Thanks to you I know the difference between love, passion and affection; between sex for pleasure and “making love”.
You were an evolution of feelings, a catharsis of experiences and sometimes, cancer of the heart. I loved you and of that I am sure. I love you and that's why I try. I give myself to you again but it feels like a game.
It hurts me to love you like this. It hurts me to have us like this. I love you but the feelings, it is evident, are in another channel.
To walk away and stay with the memory, with the romantic and platonic idea of what we once had; to stay with the perfect story to tell and which we can no longer live; that is the best idea we can respect. Although I'm sorry, I prefer to forget.
My desires are to be all my lives, imaginary or not, with you; but reality is hard and breaks me daily... I went from feeling loved to be the option or at least to feel like one.
I feel like a whim, a habit, a comfort. I feel the willing one, the safe one... what I never thought I would feel with you. I don't feel you like I used to, I don't feel like you used to make me feel. It's simple, I don't feel us anymore.
I don't feel a sincere affection, I don't feel the nice and old attraction, but a forced interaction... I don't feel you the same anymore, I don't know you and your way of thinking, I don't recognize and I don't want to know those new ways or ways of yours. I no longer feel myself in you and it is obvious, nor you in me.
It hurts but I am happy for you. I hope you live happily. As for me, I will live with the consequences of each of my actions and I will assume them as one more experience that in the end, I know will help us to find that person we thought we had found, that we thought was you and me.
Photographers: Luciana Giachino
I am the result of a combined personality and inexplicable thought. I am a point of view, a way of speaking, a passion reflected in image and text.
Multiple but controlled personality. Publicist and photographer; lover of art, literature and visual culture. Believer of national talent and pulley of those who seek to excel from their passions. With a “broken heart” from birth and inspired by the nostalgia of life in general.