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What pieces or projects have you been working on lately? <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Since September 2024, I have been working on a project called Saudade<\/em>. Both the project and I have changed a lot since I started it, but we have always maintained our essence. When I began working conceptually, my vision was for it to be a poetry book; I was writing a lot. Those writings eventually transformed into images that I created in my mind and that, over time, I began to produce. When the images and texts started leaving gaps for me, I began to draw; I was sketching all the time, but I no longer felt the need to materialize them or turn them into photographs. Finally, I arrived at plastic arts; it felt like something the project itself was asking me to explore, to work more with physical mediums.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saudade<\/em> delves into the depths of my personal history: how we simultaneously consume\u2014and are consumed by\u2014places and relationships, including ourselves. It\u2019s the transition from leaving what is supposed to be \u201chome\u201d, the place where I was meant to have a sense of belonging in a territory, and beginning to find it in new spaces with the bonds I was connecting with.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The project unfolded in three phases. The first focused entirely on home, the house where I grew up, which I now visit as a guest whenever I return, just passing through for a few days, exploring what the crisis of belonging felt like. The second phase looked at the role that personal bonds played in the places I inhabited; losing a connection with someone often brought with it a rejection of the places we once shared. The third phase confronted how I engaged with these bonds: how they absorbed the space around them, and in turn, how the space absorbed me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In the end, where does belonging remain? Everything becomes a cycle, and belonging becomes temporary: nothing lasts. \u201cPeople become places, and places become people\u201d<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

After a year of going through writing, photography, drawing, alternative analog processes, and plastic arts, Saudade<\/em> is now in preparation for its first solo exhibition, which will take place on November 27, 2025, at Sitio Centro, Monterrey, Nuevo Le\u00f3n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My affection for it is immense, and I really like it both visually and in terms of the themes it addresses. I had done other projects such as La incomodidad que nos llev\u00f3 a la muerte de nuestro hogar (cuerpo) <\/em>and ARCHIVOS DE UNA MEMORIA<\/em>, but this one in particular has helped me grow significantly as an artist. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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What did you learn (or unlearn) while working on them? <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

That everything changes all the time, and that\u2019s okay; we have to give space for change to continue evolving constantly, but at the same time, we must remain firm and not hesitate in what we do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I learned to confront myself, to be honest with what I felt, to have patience, not to rush, and to enjoy the process. To value effort and forgive in order to heal with the places that were painful to revisit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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What words, ideas or emotions were going through your head? <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fear, shame, nostalgia, fleetingness, trust, gratitude, and love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Were there any conversations, movies, music, or books that made their way into that work? <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I remember that the first four months of this project were pure exploration; I was coming from a creative block, from being afraid of doing the same thing as always and getting stuck. I had recurring conversations with V\u00edctor Palomares, who at the time was teaching documentary photography, and I remember that in one conversation he told me that I should look toward the place I came from, to dig deep until I found where the urge to speak and create came from. Being from a small town in the south of Nuevo Le\u00f3n, my context was quite different, and it was from there that I began to realize the crisis of belonging I carried.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In my work, there is always music accompanying me, and this time was no exception. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Earlier this year, I came across the word saudade. It resonated deeply with me, stayed marked in my being, and weeks later, Kevin Kaarl released his album ULTRA SODADE<\/em><\/a>. For me, it was the perfect alignment, because I first identified with the word, and I connected it strongly to this crisis of belonging I was experiencing at the time. Afterwards, the songs from ULTRA SODADE<\/em> seemed to understand what I was going through; they made me reflect on my closeness with the bonds I had and those I have now. So, it was present throughout the process of this project, as well as his album Paris Texas<\/a><\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Norte\u00f1o music also played an important role; it was key in reconnecting with the place where I grew up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The songs that accompanied me most during the process were:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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