{"id":187363,"date":"2025-08-21T11:38:24","date_gmt":"2025-08-21T17:38:24","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=187363"},"modified":"2025-08-21T11:38:28","modified_gmt":"2025-08-21T17:38:28","slug":"bottle-me-up","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/bottle-me-up\/","title":{"rendered":"Bottle me up"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This is me being cynical and scared of my imagination.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Cause I\u2019ve played us in slow motion in one million futures, and in all of them, there\u2019s you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Cause I\u2019ve been trying to find meaning in all corners. I\u2019ve also checked under the table. You left no clues. No traces.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">(Your silence is too loud)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Why is it there\u2019s a gallery of us in my head if you have always been busy being make believe?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">How&#8217;s that insatiable appetite? You still want to bottle me up?&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I imagine you imagining me in that dress. Do I still make you feel that way?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I&#8217;m playing the fear I&#8217;ve felt when I realized there\u2019s nothing but none nonsense scenes of you and me. I replay all of those scenes in my head and I\u2019m seeing all I don&#8217;t have.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Should I get used to that?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Stop judging me with your inner voice. I\u2019m done doing that.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">See? This is me being cynical. 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