{"id":160760,"date":"2020-05-31T01:13:18","date_gmt":"2020-05-30T15:13:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=160760"},"modified":"2022-08-31T00:14:14","modified_gmt":"2022-08-31T05:14:14","slug":"indefectible","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/indefectible\/","title":{"rendered":"Indefectible"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Este incesante sentimiento de culpa al comer me pudre el cerebro.<\/p>\n<p>Pas\u00e9 las siguientes tres horas recostada en el piso cerrando de rato los ojos, repitiendo que s\u00f3lo es un mal d\u00eda, me forc\u00e9 a vaciar mi mente al un\u00edsono mientras la noche continuaba su curso y yo me quedaba dormida. Despert\u00e9 alterada y el agitado palpitar no me permite volver a conciliar el sue\u00f1o, ni aqu\u00e9l mosquito que insiste y persiste. 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