{"id":157357,"date":"2020-04-07T14:58:33","date_gmt":"2020-04-07T04:58:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=157357"},"modified":"2026-06-10T11:15:55","modified_gmt":"2026-06-10T17:15:55","slug":"self-destruction","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/self-destruction\/","title":{"rendered":"Self-destruction"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Hace mucho tiempo que no veo a mi familia ni a mis amigos y la verdad no los extra\u00f1o, siento que cuanto m\u00e1s lejos estoy de ellos, mejor.<\/p>\n<p>Nunca nadie se interes\u00f3 realmente por lo que yo sent\u00eda o hac\u00eda.<\/p>\n<p>Recuerdo cuando yo les hablaba a todos sobre algo que me interesaba, pero nunca me hicieron caso alguno, siempre optaban por re\u00edrse, cambiar de tema o fingir que no me hab\u00edan escuchado. Nunca voy a entender por qu\u00e9 hicieron eso.<\/p>\n<p>Supongo que no fue su intenci\u00f3n, pero igual me lastimaba.<\/p>\n<p>Siempre fui m\u00e1s sensible que el resto aunque pareciera que nada me importaba, a\u00a0veces no dorm\u00eda pensando en todas esas cosas que alguna vez me lastimaron.<\/p>\n<p>A pesar de todo nunca dej\u00e9 nada sin terminar exceptuando mis 40 textos incompletos, guardados y editados m\u00e1s de cinco veces, est\u00e1n en mi computadora<em>. <\/em>Como escritora siempre encontraba algo que no me gustaba.<\/p>\n<p>Mis textos fueron lo \u00fanico que pude modificar a lo largo de mi vida.<\/p>\n<p>Me gustar\u00eda decir que cambie el mundo de alguna manera pues adopt\u00e9 varios animales de la calle, le daba asistencia a la gente que lo necesitaba y m\u00e1s de alguna vez fui voluntaria en Cruz Roja, pero el mundo nunca cambia y a veces dudo en que nosotros alguna vez lo hagamos. Tal vez solo me gustaba sentirme \u00fatil e hice todas esas cosas.<\/p>\n<p>Tuve una vida promedio apegada a la realidad, jam\u00e1s fui exitosa, nadie aclam\u00f3 mi presencia, no publiqu\u00e9 ni uno solo de mis textos, nunca hice nada extraordinario ni mucho menos me cas\u00e9 con el amor de mi vida.<br \/>\nEsas cosas no le pasan a la gente como yo.<\/p>\n<p>A lo largo de mi vida me top\u00e9 con muchas personas que me lastimaron y muy pocos se disculparon por hacerlo, me hicieron sentir como basura, una total mierda desplazable y f\u00e1cil de evadir. Pero no fue mi culpa, lo s\u00e9.<\/p>\n<p>Poco a poco fui colapsando, me hund\u00ed en un mar de tristeza, desplazo y soledad. No aprend\u00ed a nadar nunca y me dej\u00e9 ahogar.<\/p>\n<p>As\u00ed que s\u00ed, como no ten\u00eda nada mejor que hacer me autodestru\u00ed.<br \/>\nHasta nunca.<\/p>\n<p>Photography by\u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/the_last_magnus\">Magnus Jorgensen<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hace mucho tiempo que no veo a mi familia ni a mis amigos y la verdad no los extra\u00f1o, siento que cuanto m\u00e1s lejos estoy de ellos, mejor. Nunca nadie se interes\u00f3 realmente por lo que yo sent\u00eda o hac\u00eda. 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