{"id":157357,"date":"2020-04-07T14:58:33","date_gmt":"2020-04-07T04:58:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=157357"},"modified":"2022-08-31T01:09:01","modified_gmt":"2022-08-31T06:09:01","slug":"self-destruction","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/self-destruction\/","title":{"rendered":"Self-destruction"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hace mucho tiempo que no veo a mi familia ni a mis amigos y la verdad no los extra\u00f1o, siento que cuanto m\u00e1s lejos estoy de ellos, mejor.<\/p>\n

Nunca nadie se interes\u00f3 realmente por lo que yo sent\u00eda o hac\u00eda.<\/p>\n

Recuerdo cuando yo les hablaba a todos sobre algo que me interesaba, pero nunca me hicieron caso alguno, siempre optaban por re\u00edrse, cambiar de tema o fingir que no me hab\u00edan escuchado. Nunca voy a entender por qu\u00e9 hicieron eso.<\/p>\n

Supongo que no fue su intenci\u00f3n, pero igual me lastimaba.<\/p>\n

Siempre fui m\u00e1s sensible que el resto aunque pareciera que nada me importaba, a\u00a0veces no dorm\u00eda pensando en todas esas cosas que alguna vez me lastimaron.<\/p>\n

A pesar de todo nunca dej\u00e9 nada sin terminar exceptuando mis 40 textos incompletos, guardados y editados m\u00e1s de cinco veces, est\u00e1n en mi computadora. <\/em>Como escritora siempre encontraba algo que no me gustaba.<\/p>\n

Mis textos fueron lo \u00fanico que pude modificar a lo largo de mi vida.<\/p>\n

Me gustar\u00eda decir que cambie el mundo de alguna manera pues adopt\u00e9 varios animales de la calle, le daba asistencia a la gente que lo necesitaba y m\u00e1s de alguna vez fui voluntaria en Cruz Roja, pero el mundo nunca cambia y a veces dudo en que nosotros alguna vez lo hagamos. Tal vez solo me gustaba sentirme \u00fatil e hice todas esas cosas.<\/p>\n

Tuve una vida promedio apegada a la realidad, jam\u00e1s fui exitosa, nadie aclam\u00f3 mi presencia, no publiqu\u00e9 ni uno solo de mis textos, nunca hice nada extraordinario ni mucho menos me cas\u00e9 con el amor de mi vida.
\nEsas cosas no le pasan a la gente como yo.<\/p>\n

A lo largo de mi vida me top\u00e9 con muchas personas que me lastimaron y muy pocos se disculparon por hacerlo, me hicieron sentir como basura, una total mierda desplazable y f\u00e1cil de evadir. Pero no fue mi culpa, lo s\u00e9.<\/p>\n

Poco a poco fui colapsando, me hund\u00ed en un mar de tristeza, desplazo y soledad. No aprend\u00ed a nadar nunca y me dej\u00e9 ahogar.<\/p>\n

As\u00ed que s\u00ed, como no ten\u00eda nada mejor que hacer me autodestru\u00ed.
\nHasta nunca.<\/p>\n

Photography by\u00a0Magnus Jorgensen<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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