{"id":156486,"date":"2020-03-22T13:35:59","date_gmt":"2020-03-22T02:35:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=156486"},"modified":"2026-06-10T11:16:13","modified_gmt":"2026-06-10T17:16:13","slug":"insustancial","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/insustancial\/","title":{"rendered":"Insustancial"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Siento que me aburro profundamente. No logro comprender por qu\u00e9 estoy aqu\u00ed.<\/p>\n<p>\u00bfQu\u00e9 hago aqu\u00ed? \u00bfPor qu\u00e9 hablo con la gente? \u00bfPor qu\u00e9 estoy vestida de esta manera? Mi pasi\u00f3n est\u00e1 muerta.<\/p>\n<p>Estoy arrebatada y arrastrada: en la actualidad me siento vac\u00eda. Pero esto no es lo peor; delante de m\u00ed, plantada con una especia de indolencia, hab\u00eda una idea voluminosa e ins\u00edpida. No s\u00e9 muy bien qu\u00e9 es, pero no puedo mirarla, me da mucho asco, e incluso miedo. Y es que no puedo reconocerme, ni en el espejo, ni en mi canci\u00f3n favorita.<\/p>\n<p>Estoy tan confundida, no logro comprender lo que soy, lo que fui y mucho menos lo que ser\u00e9. \u00bfY qu\u00e9 ser\u00e9? Polvo. \u00bfPor qu\u00e9 me resulta tan complejo entenderme? No soy nada. Soy pasajera, como t\u00fa, como todos.\u00a0 Ya estoy hasta la madre de vivir en mi cabeza, encerrada, sin salida, siendo mi peor enemigo.<\/p>\n<p>No olvido esa idea ins\u00edpida, la siento recorrer todo mi cuerpo. No tengo ni puta idea de qu\u00e9 es, de d\u00f3nde viene y por qu\u00e9 ha llegado en este momento. Me da miedo, mucho miedo y asco. Al fin me reconoc\u00ed en el espejo,no me gusta lo que emana de m\u00ed.<\/p>\n<p>El hecho es, que me quebr\u00e9.<\/p>\n<p>Photography by <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/jocelyncatterson\/\">Jocelyn Catterson<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Siento que me aburro profundamente. 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