{"id":156435,"date":"2020-03-22T11:13:33","date_gmt":"2020-03-22T00:13:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=156435"},"modified":"2026-06-10T11:16:15","modified_gmt":"2026-06-10T17:16:15","slug":"airhole","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/airhole\/","title":{"rendered":"Airhole"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Nadie m\u00e1s vendr\u00e1 a decirte las palabras que quieras escuchar. Ni a sostener tu mano con la caricia exacta, ni abrazar tu coraz\u00f3n con la suficiente delicadeza, ni arroparte como so\u00f1aste cuando eras ni\u00f1a.<\/p>\n<p>Solo vemos lo que tuvimos.<\/p>\n<p>Solo amamos como vimos amar.<\/p>\n<p>Solo quisimos sobrevivir.<\/p>\n<p>Y as\u00ed sigues, con esa misma idea, d\u00eda con d\u00eda se alimenta de las mismas palabras. De cosas inexistentes, de sentimientos est\u00fapidos, de invalidez.<\/p>\n<p>Un mundo imaginario inexistente donde no s\u00f3lo te refugias, tambi\u00e9n desapareces. Y no importa lo que digan, porque nada de eso es real \u00bfVerdad?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>Respira, sigue respirando.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>Mam\u00e1, ya no puedo con esto. Me quiero morir.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Quisiera ser como las dem\u00e1s. He pensado.<\/p>\n<p>Pero me toc\u00f3 ser quien soy. Tampoco puedo cambiarlo. Me ha costado trabajo aceptar mi cuerpa. Lo m\u00edo no son los concursos.<\/p>\n<p>Lo m\u00edo es desgarrarme, gritar.<\/p>\n<p>Lo m\u00edo es deshacerme, deshebrar la carne, quitar el pellejo, dividirlo, quitar lo que siempre odi\u00e9. Y quedarme con nada.<\/p>\n<p>Ojal\u00e1 no fuera mi culpa.<\/p>\n<p>Nadie vendr\u00e1 a decirte que no lo es.<\/p>\n<p>Nadie vendr\u00e1 a decirte que eres suficiente, que vales la pena. El da\u00f1o est\u00e1 hecho.<\/p>\n<p>Y el da\u00f1o estuvo hecho siempre.<\/p>\n<p>No me dieron oportunidad. Quien abus\u00f3 sexualmente de m\u00ed a los cuatro a\u00f1os, no me dio oportunidad. Escuchar todo el tiempo que lo que haces est\u00e1 mal, tampoco fue darme una oportunidad. Crecer con la idea de que todo lo que har\u00edas ser\u00eda insuficiente\u2026 No hubo oportunidad.<\/p>\n<p>Hasta hoy.<\/p>\n<p>Nadie vendr\u00e1 a decirte que te ama.<\/p>\n<p>M\u00e1s que t\u00fa.<\/p>\n<p>Nadie m\u00e1s vendr\u00e1 a socorrerte o abrazarte o besarte o consolarte\u2026<\/p>\n<p>M\u00e1s que t\u00fa.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00f3lo fuimos lo que vimos.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00f3lo amamos como los vimos amar.<\/p>\n<p>Y eso no era amor.<\/p>\n<p>Y tampoco lo es \u201cesto\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>Por mucho que has intentado, cari\u00f1o, no sabes c\u00f3mo amar.<\/p>\n<p>Y lo sigues haciendo.<\/p>\n<p>Y tendr\u00e1s que seguir haci\u00e9ndolo.<\/p>\n<p>Porque nadie m\u00e1s vendr\u00e1 a tranquilizarte,<\/p>\n<p>O consolarte,<\/p>\n<p>O amarte como tu quisieras, de esa forma desgarradora, entregada, apasionada, ilimitada, esa fuerza que lo consume todo.<\/p>\n<p>M\u00e1s que t\u00fa.<\/p>\n<p>Photography by <a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/jocelyncatterson\/\">Jocelyn Catterson<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Nadie m\u00e1s vendr\u00e1 a decirte las palabras que quieras escuchar. 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Y as\u00ed sigues, con esa misma idea, d\u00eda [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":6378,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"cybocfi_hide_featured_image":"","_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[17385],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-156435","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-writing"],"acf":[],"mb":[],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v27.7 - https:\/\/yoast.com\/product\/yoast-seo-wordpress\/ -->\n<title>Airhole - ERRR MAGAZINE<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/airhole\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"Airhole - ERRR MAGAZINE\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"Nadie m\u00e1s vendr\u00e1 a decirte las palabras que quieras escuchar. 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