I don't know what I'm supposed to feel anymore.<\/p>\n
I don't know what I should feel for Wendy, I don't know if I miss her or I don't know if I feel some resentment for what happened, I feel confused, the point is that I don't want to feel hate towards anyone, but that is a topic I don't want to delve into until I clarify well what I feel. I am living a quiet life since what happened with Diego and the whole summer.<\/p>\n
I feel like I'm settling into a new life that involves my new job, my new coworkers, my new dates and those few friends from the past that I'm getting back in touch with.<\/p>\n
And the truth is that I don't feel bad, I try to be proud of myself, of the things I do and the things I stop doing to avoid the pain like wanting to call Diego and tell him about my day and what is going on in my mind, sometimes I miss his company, but I don't have the energy for so much pain anymore.<\/p>\n
I feel that coming home, watching a movie, eating something, talking to my mom for a few minutes and laughing alone in my room with the lights off as I like; are some small pleasures that life is giving me. I like now, I like this moment. My present is calm, relaxed, I feel no pressure, I feel peace and I want to live in this peace at least for a while longer.<\/p>\n