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I feel old,
\nover the years I am becoming
\nof letters on paper
\nand unwashed memories.
\nOne hundred percent flammable.<\/p>\n

Me,
\nlike those of the old guard,
\nI am condemned to love you
\nfor the rest of your days,
\nand to write to you
\nthe rest of mine.<\/p>\n

I look at you,
\nand I find out why
\nof my old age.
\nI remember the reproaches
\nthat furrowed my soul,
\nthe \u201cno\u201d and the \u201cneither\u201d.<\/p>\n

But it's you
\nmy goal.
\nIt is to you
\nto where
\nalways
\nI will want
\nrunning.<\/p>\n

I feel sick,
\nmy discomforts are interpreted
\nas chronic clouding,
\nand growing apprenticeship.
\nCompletely voluntary.<\/p>\n

Me,
\nsuch as Pi\u00f1on, Castellanos, Pizarnik,
\n-or any other
\nI am doomed to love
\nfor the rest of my days,
\nand may it be for you
\nif I perish.<\/p>\n

This poem is a smoke signal,
\nan epitaph,
\nany love verse
\nthat hurts.<\/p>\n

Ven,
\nthat could
\ndie
\nwithout returning
\nto see you.<\/p>\n

Photography by Denis Ryabov<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Me siento vieja, con los a\u00f1os me voy haciendo de letras en papel y memorias inlavables. Ciento por ciento flamables. Yo, como los de la vieja guardia, estoy condenada a amarte por el resto de tus d\u00edas, y a escribirte el resto de los m\u00edos. Te miro, y descubro el por qu\u00e9 de mi vejez. 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