{"id":137291,"date":"2018-08-05T20:19:17","date_gmt":"2018-08-05T10:19:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=137291"},"modified":"2022-08-31T01:52:14","modified_gmt":"2022-08-31T06:52:14","slug":"despair","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/despair\/","title":{"rendered":"Despair"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Faltan cuatro minutos para que sean las 2 de la madrugada y aqu\u00ed estoy en el sof\u00e1 de la sala viendo como tu puto &#8220;en l\u00ednea&#8221; de Whatsapp me est\u00e1 torturando porque s\u00e9 que est\u00e1s hablando con la zorra de tu ex novia a la que le cambiaste el nombre por el de un colega del trabajo (indios, \u00bfpor qu\u00e9 no?) para que no supiera que sigue mensajeandote con ella, a pesar de que te ped\u00ed que dejaras de hacerlo. Estoy escuchando como por d\u00e9cima vez Despair de Yeah Yeah Yeahs porque no mamen, puta canci\u00f3n es una joya y no le hab\u00eda puesto la atenci\u00f3n suficiente. Siempre me da por escribir en las noches, y hoy estoy aprovechando este perro dolor que siento en el coraz\u00f3n porque s\u00e9 que esto ya se fue al carajo, seco mis lagrimas mientras sigo escuchando Despair y mientras sigo pensando en qu\u00e9 sigues hablando con esa idiota. Aunque tal vez volvamos a hablar (o no, que ser\u00eda lo mejor para m\u00ed) y pudieramos regresar, \u00e9sto ya tiene m\u00e1s c\u00e1ncer que Augustus Waters con osteosarcoma, \u00bfentiendes?, est\u00e1 podrido, muerto. La que no entiende soy yo, porque a pesar de que has sido una horrible persona conmigo te sigo queriendo y s\u00e9 que si en este momento me pidieras regresar yo aceptar\u00eda, como la mayor idiota del mundo que soy.<\/p>\n<p>Por favor alguien detengame; adelante el tiempo; una lobotom\u00eda ser\u00eda perfecta; o s\u00e1quenme los ojos para dejar de ver esa sonrisa est\u00fapida de su foto de perfil en Whatsapp.<\/p>\n<p>Ya no lloro tanto, creo que de tanto llorar me he quedado sin l\u00e1grimas. \u00bfEso puede pasar?<\/p>\n<p>Sigo escuchando Despair y no puedo creer que la est\u00e9 amando tanto.Son las 02:08 am.<\/p>\n<p>Vete a la verga, me has lastimao como nadie antes lo ha hecho, y realmente creo que no tienes ni puta idea de lo mucho que te amo, de todo lo que significas para m\u00ed y todos las cosas que he hecho para estar contigo. Estaba dispuesta a todo, aunque el mundo estuviese en mi contra, yo estaba apostando todo por ti, t\u00fa jam\u00e1s quisiste arriesgar nada por m\u00ed.<\/p>\n<p>P.D. S\u00e9 que est\u00e1s hablando con esa zorra. .l.<\/p>\n<p>02:21 am.<\/p>\n<p>Photographers: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/nikyun\/page1\">Nik To<\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Faltan cuatro minutos para que sean las 2 de la madrugada y aqu\u00ed estoy en el sof\u00e1 de la sala viendo como tu puto &#8220;en l\u00ednea&#8221; de Whatsapp me est\u00e1 torturando porque s\u00e9 que est\u00e1s hablando con la zorra de tu ex novia a la que le cambiaste el nombre por el de un colega [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4772,"featured_media":137367,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"cybocfi_hide_featured_image":"","_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[17385],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-137291","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-writing"],"acf":[],"mb":[],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v27.7 - 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