{"id":129520,"date":"2018-03-14T23:17:49","date_gmt":"2018-03-15T05:17:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/?p=129520"},"modified":"2022-08-31T02:02:35","modified_gmt":"2022-08-31T07:02:35","slug":"ayer","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/errr-magazine.com\/english\/ayer\/","title":{"rendered":"Ayer&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><em>Ayer, me dijo que terminar\u00eda con su vida.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Se desped\u00eda de mi, pero entre lagrimas me dec\u00eda que no quer\u00eda dejarme, que yo era lo \u00fanico que la hacia quedarse en este mundo, que para ella era ya una mierda. 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